some random stuff

because i miss his laugher.
i started eating the food that he used to enjoy.

because i miss his voice
i started listening to music and songs that he used to hum.

because i miss having him near
i started visiting places that he used to mention.

because i am who i am
i will not let him know these,
i will be brave and strong.
when he sees me again someday,
he will say "you had grown much".

because of that such a day,
i will press in and battle the fear and lost within.

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leaving him was a decision to release us from both our pain
leaving him was a way to preserve our love with memories
yet the process of it all hurts like a stabbing a blunt knife into the delicate heart

i screamed into the lofty skies but the sound seems to be choke in between somewhere.
the scream seems to had got struck in my windpipe.
i am choking, choking in my sorrows and pain.
will i survive through this?

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