don't change...

the one that caught my eyes were that innocent smile you had on your slightly puff-up cheeks. you said they looked too fat, always comparing them to the fishballs. your lips, so smooth and soft. even without lipstick, they looks so pretty in pink and moist. you complaint about your lips being too flat and small. you always imagine how it will be like if yours were like Shu Qi's. i smiled and said... "i simply like it the way you are"

today you laid still and motionless on the cold steel bed. your body had turned cold and blue. your puffy cheeks had sunken in due to the rapid weight loss and your lips had lost all its colour and moist. it had turned dried and chapped. i know what you would had said if you had seen all these coming... "it was great being that cute little pumpkin." i imagine you standing next to me, watching yourself from a distance. i whispered "i simply love the way you are. it was the inner beauty in you that draws me near. my love, rest in peace... i will never forget you."